Crazy Love Thoughts

Some thoughts I jotted down after reading the book Crazy Love.

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It’s not just about God’s crazy love for us. It’s also about our response to Him. A response that stems out of our love for what He’s done/is doing for us. A response that seems a little crazy.

Is anyone questioning my actions? Does anyone think I’m living a little too crazy?

I need to pray daily that God will help me love Him. Daily I drift away. Daily I want Him to help me see Him with fresh eyes. The danger is when God’s crazy love for me just feels common, ordinary, everyday. I want awe!

What am I doing right now in my life that requires faith? Anything? Hopefully.

What if Jesus wasn’t in heaven? Friends, beauty, no sadness or pain, but no Jesus. Would I still want heaven?

So often we live such a way in this life, as American Christians, that we seemingly don’t need God. We can pay off our own debt, we can work ourself into a great job, we can plan out our families to be just the right size, we can build up an emergency fund and a retirement fund and a college fund. We can go days, weeks, months, without really even needing to connect with God. We can be so self-sufficient it’s scary. Then something happens that rocks our world and we have no spiritual core to help us trust in God, lean on God, rest in God. We’ve lived without Him for so long, we forget what it looks like to live with Him. *Note to self: pray everyday that you’ll NEED Him and that you’ll RECOGNIZE that need.

Trusting isn’t comfortable. It flies in the face of everything we’ve been taught about proper planning. (Oh man, did this one hit me. I thrive on proper planning. My planning. My answers. My ways. So often I don’t stop to ask Him or is it that I don’t have the ears to hear Him.)

We are obsessed with safety. It has become our highest priority. We arrange our lives around what is safe. Safe is blending in. Safe is never risking. Safe is staying the same. Safe is comfortable.

Does everyone I know have enough? Do I know anyone who is poor? Do I know anyone that has needs I can meet?

Spend yourselves…give yourselves. The idea of servant leadership. To lead, is to serve others. (*Note to self – serve out of the right motivation, otherwise you’ll get burnt out fast.)

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When I read books like these it’s easy to start to feel guilty. I’m not doing enough. Or, I’m doing it all wrong. Or, I’m so far behind I’ll never catch up.

This time I didn’t let myself go to those thoughts. Instead I thought “I can’t implement all these truths instantly.”

It takes weeks, months even years to acquire the sort of strong spiritual core that allows me to serve those around me, help the poor, trust God, and love Him in crazy, radical ways. I’m trying to take bite-size truths and apply them.

Isn’t that what Jesus did for us in boiling down the commandments?

Because really, it’s just about two things, love God and love others. And if we’re loving God the best we can, He will make it apparent how we are to love on others.

In my mind I believe that intensely. Now to just give my heart time to catch up.