Comments on: I’m Afraid to Disappear http://www.messycanvas.com/2009/06/im-afraid-to-disappear/ Free to embrace the Imperfect and call it an Art. Fri, 19 Mar 2010 13:01:33 -0700 http://wordpress.org/?v=2.9.1 hourly 1 By: mandy http://www.messycanvas.com/2009/06/im-afraid-to-disappear/comment-page-1/#comment-1734 mandy Wed, 10 Jun 2009 16:11:36 +0000 http://www.messycanvas.com/?p=1420#comment-1734 Thanks for all the feedback. You know, when I was writing all this, I wasn't even thinking about doing away with my blog altogether. I think my blog documents my journey, and I have to have it for my own sanity at this point. One form of my artistic expression will always be writing, and so the blog is a creative outlet. Plus I get to incorporate photography as well. Another artistic expression for me. It's a bonus that you all enjoy my "window" as Paige said. I do however want to be sharing more than words on my blog. I want those words to pour from a life well lived. And while I'm working on it, I'm not there yet. I realize I will never be completely "there," but I also know how much better I can be doing at artistically living with intention. The problem is getting onto write a blog post and getting lost in a world of answering emails, following links, getting swallowed into facebook and twitter land and feeling the need to conversate just to prove I'm still alive. That's one struggle. The other struggle comes down to really wanting to engage in creating and realizing that to do much of what I'm dreaming of doing right now, it will take the discipline of working on it for a long time. Some of the things I want to do can't be done in an hour or two and then shared in a blog post. They will take time to percolate, to build on themself, much like a snowball. But if I only create so that things can be immediately seen, if I'm afraid to disappear (as in showing off what I'm creating) then I may never attempt the things I see in my head and feel in my soul. That's what I'm struggling with and contemplating. Does that make more sense? Thanks for all the feedback. You know, when I was writing all this, I wasn’t even thinking about doing away with my blog altogether. I think my blog documents my journey, and I have to have it for my own sanity at this point. One form of my artistic expression will always be writing, and so the blog is a creative outlet. Plus I get to incorporate photography as well. Another artistic expression for me. It’s a bonus that you all enjoy my “window” as Paige said.

I do however want to be sharing more than words on my blog. I want those words to pour from a life well lived. And while I’m working on it, I’m not there yet. I realize I will never be completely “there,” but I also know how much better I can be doing at artistically living with intention.

The problem is getting onto write a blog post and getting lost in a world of answering emails, following links, getting swallowed into facebook and twitter land and feeling the need to conversate just to prove I’m still alive. That’s one struggle.

The other struggle comes down to really wanting to engage in creating and realizing that to do much of what I’m dreaming of doing right now, it will take the discipline of working on it for a long time. Some of the things I want to do can’t be done in an hour or two and then shared in a blog post. They will take time to percolate, to build on themself, much like a snowball. But if I only create so that things can be immediately seen, if I’m afraid to disappear (as in showing off what I’m creating) then I may never attempt the things I see in my head and feel in my soul. That’s what I’m struggling with and contemplating. Does that make more sense?

]]> By: Laura http://www.messycanvas.com/2009/06/im-afraid-to-disappear/comment-page-1/#comment-1733 Laura Wed, 10 Jun 2009 15:43:51 +0000 http://www.messycanvas.com/?p=1420#comment-1733 Coming from a mother, mother-in-law, grandmother, and friend perspective "dittos" to Paige's comment. For now we are in Ohio and can't be close to you all, but your blog brings me close everyday and inspires me in my own life - purely selfish reasons but it is a way to stay connected. I do understand when/if you take time off, but you will be missed. Love you all much! Coming from a mother, mother-in-law, grandmother, and friend perspective “dittos” to Paige’s comment. For now we are in Ohio and can’t be close to you all, but your blog brings me close everyday and inspires me in my own life – purely selfish reasons but it is a way to stay connected. I do understand when/if you take time off, but you will be missed. Love you all much!

]]> By: paige http://www.messycanvas.com/2009/06/im-afraid-to-disappear/comment-page-1/#comment-1732 paige Wed, 10 Jun 2009 15:37:19 +0000 http://www.messycanvas.com/?p=1420#comment-1732 yes. see... i hear both sides of this. but i tell you what, the internet and all its "silly" facebook and myspace and time-consuming looking and reading and whatever it means for each person-ness.... fact is that i get to see pics of your kids. and read what you are thinking. and laugh out loud. like we were talking. and i tell you, for real, that for people who live far and people who you aren't going to see or talk to but who love love you, this blog is not those things you struggle with. for us it is simply you sharing your life. not for acceptance or all those other things. but for a new generation of companionship. of closeness even when geography separates. its nice. so.... there ya go! i hope you don't disappear. create - yes! be present with your kids - yes! feel fulfilled and inspired by those things around you - yes! but i tell you, i love clicking on *you* on my computer and having the window, the thoughts, the reminders of life. love to you! yes. see… i hear both sides of this. but i tell you what, the internet and all its “silly” facebook and myspace and time-consuming looking and reading and whatever it means for each person-ness…. fact is that i get to see pics of your kids. and read what you are thinking. and laugh out loud. like we were talking. and i tell you, for real, that for people who live far and people who you aren’t going to see or talk to but who love love you, this blog is not those things you struggle with. for us it is simply you sharing your life. not for acceptance or all those other things. but for a new generation of companionship. of closeness even when geography separates. its nice. so…. there ya go! i hope you don’t disappear. create – yes! be present with your kids – yes! feel fulfilled and inspired by those things around you – yes!
but i tell you, i love clicking on *you* on my computer and having the window, the thoughts, the reminders of life.
love to you!

]]> By: Karen http://www.messycanvas.com/2009/06/im-afraid-to-disappear/comment-page-1/#comment-1731 Karen Wed, 10 Jun 2009 15:12:31 +0000 http://www.messycanvas.com/?p=1420#comment-1731 But we might MISS you. But we might MISS you.

]]> By: Amy http://www.messycanvas.com/2009/06/im-afraid-to-disappear/comment-page-1/#comment-1730 Amy Wed, 10 Jun 2009 02:47:42 +0000 http://www.messycanvas.com/?p=1420#comment-1730 I've recently disappeared from facebook and twitter. Some days I miss it. The days when I'm bored...or procrastinating. Most days I don't even think about it....especially when I'm working on a project (sewing, scrapbooking, organizing, etc.). I have times, when I disappear from my blog as well...but then I remember why I blog...not for others to read (or for their acceptance)...but it's more of a online memory book...something I hope my kids will look back on and see a piece of me. My Mom started a blog in 2006...a year before she was diagnosed with leukemia, and 18 months before she was called to home to heaven. She only posted 3 times. Those three posts are so very precious to me. I will hold onto them forever. The are a piece of her. So I think you're right when you mentioned 'motives'. Ask yourself...why you're doing (or not doing) 'X,Y, or Z' and take it from there. And just for the record, I'll miss your posts terribly if you do disappear...but I do understand as well! :) ((hugs)) I’ve recently disappeared from facebook and twitter.
Some days I miss it. The days when I’m bored…or procrastinating.
Most days I don’t even think about it….especially when I’m working on a project (sewing, scrapbooking, organizing, etc.).
I have times, when I disappear from my blog as well…but then I remember why I blog…not for others to read (or for their acceptance)…but it’s more of a online memory book…something I hope my kids will look back on and see a piece of me.
My Mom started a blog in 2006…a year before she was diagnosed with leukemia, and 18 months before she was called to home to heaven. She only posted 3 times. Those three posts are so very precious to me. I will hold onto them forever. The are a piece of her.
So I think you’re right when you mentioned ‘motives’. Ask yourself…why you’re doing (or not doing) ‘X,Y, or Z’ and take it from there.
And just for the record, I’ll miss your posts terribly if you do disappear…but I do understand as well! :) ((hugs))

]]> By: Shannon La France http://www.messycanvas.com/2009/06/im-afraid-to-disappear/comment-page-1/#comment-1727 Shannon La France Tue, 09 Jun 2009 22:24:18 +0000 http://www.messycanvas.com/?p=1420#comment-1727 I have been kicking around the same thoughts just in the last day or so...my blog post from yesterday is here http://moonmonkeycoffeecompany.blogspot.com/ for me it's become somedays about affirmation....thanks for sharing and for giving me permission as an artist to check out if I want to...Love the art btw :) S I have been kicking around the same thoughts just in the last day or so…my blog post from yesterday is here http://moonmonkeycoffeecompany.blogspot.com/ for me it’s become somedays about affirmation….thanks for sharing and for giving me permission as an artist to check out if I want to…Love the art btw :)
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